Style Story: My Mental State In The Form of Texture
W E A R I N G
White Sunnies by Zero UV
A-line Corduroy Shirt Dress by COS Stores
Corduroy Pants by Madewell
Disruptor II by FILA
Hello 2019. Today is page 8 of 365. This is when the real writing starts.
I used to dread this time after the new year. All of the holiday decorations are taken down. It’s cold beyond comprehension. The sun never really come out. Sunset is depressingly at 4PM. The city feels less exciting and more silent. I used to let the darker days that come with winter to hold this pressure against me. I always think that I should be doing more. I should be maximizing the brighter hours of the day. I’ve always been anxious of what’s to come and I often used to question if there is anything coming my way at all. To be honest, it has led me to be the only thing standing in my own way in many ways.
But there has been this switch in my head. If I had to choose one thing that I focused on in 2018, it’s self-awareness. It is key to anyone’s actions and emotions. Awareness of myself is detrimental to all aspects of my life. It’s the way I treat people around me, the way I react and the way I respond to situations. Awareness of myself lets me know that I am in control of my actions and to make my bad days good again. Unpopular opinion but 2018 was personally a good year. Now, I see these slow days spent at home to be a breath of fresh air. I’m embracing this precious time I have because it’s rare any other time of the year. I have time to clean, organize, read a book, brainstorm ideas, whilst wearing no make-up and my hair exactly as it is. There’s absolutely no pressure to do the most because we are just getting started.
The bare minimum after the new year feels so good right now. Corduroy is currently my favorite in my wardrobe for a reason beyond fashion. If my mental state is in the form of texture, it’s corduroy. Just like the ridges, there will be ups and downs this year but understanding and feeling through those ups and downs adds this sense of cozy comfort to my space and my mentality.